Day 95

Okay so last night it rained and rained, so refreshing and over due. I didn’t sleep much at all between that and Jeremiah’s snoring. I felt bad I woke up all cranky and not wanting to do anything. He was showered and packed before I could even think about it. Anyway I got around eventually and had a freezing cold shower. We went to breakfast and the guests were so engrossed in some deep political scientifical conversation we had to inside at the bar and talked with Marianna. We really like Doris, finally a good Wwoofer and we have to leave. After a fairly satisfying last breakfast we cleaned our dirty old trailer. It actually wasn’t too bad except when I cleaned the headboard shelf thing. Those green lizards that play around in the curtains don’t always find their way out. A dead black shriveling corpse of one fell down while I was wiping things and I screamed and jumped off the bed. Luckily Jeremiah took it away for me and I felt better. So yeah the morning went fast. We said goodbye to Pignic and Solei was nowhere to be seen so that’s sad. Those are definitely my two favorite animals, oh I petted Dead Bird Peter as well. The drive to the airport was kind of nice but I got so nervous and scared about the moments to come. It always feels hotter at the airport, we checked in our luggage and I was a flustered emotional mess. I had to say goodbye to Jeremiah and he went through his gate. I stood in line to get screened for a good twenty minutes and had tears streaming down my face the whole time. I was so sad to leave my home here and to be alone, luckily I put my sunglasses on and no one noticed. So yeah didn’t have to wait long for that flight. It went quickly and easily. So I get to Honolulu and its so moist and muggy, I got a headache and still have it now. Anyway, before I get going on Honolulu, its evil, I hate, I’m never going back, despicable ugly city. Okay so I am a rat in a maze trying to get out of the durn airport and ask enough grumpy old security men to find my way to the city bus stop. Well unlike the wonderful big island of Hawai’i, the bus is not free, just one of the vast and important differences. So I have half an hour to go begging strangers because I cant get back in and break my twenty without getting screened again. I make a dollar and hope my meager offering will sound like a handful of quarters, it works. The bus is full and hot and the windows are hard to see through. We do go through this pretty cool looking Chinese part of Honolulu. So I have been on the bus for what feels like enough time and the old couple behind me says yeah this is the famous Waikiki beach. So I get there and lay out my blanket, its blue skies and white fluffy clouds. I saw my first rainbow in Hawai’i on the bus ride over, that was good. Anyway for what seems like good weather it is constantly sprinkling a little. I get in the water and its nice, but it’s chunky rocks on the bottom like the Rickreall creek sort of so I don’t stay in long. Well by the time I’ve been there forty five minutes I’m worried about getting back in time, which was silly but traveling alone makes me all rushed and scared. So I got some Subway and had a quick lunch. People kept starring at me really hard and unabashedly the whole time I ate at my little table. I was modestly dressed, eating a normal sandwich. I just don’t get it, is it because all the little jutting hipbone girls around here don’t eat and I looked crazy. Whatever the case when it wasn’t just the one cute Asian guy who blatantly starred at me first I started to get really pissed and uncomfortable and decided to wait for the bus. I waited on the wrong side for a bit, then went to the right side. No biggie, I put in all my change to get on but the bus drivers little receptacle counts change now apparently and he’s all “that’s not enough”. I told him all I had was fives and he said well you’ll have to put one in then, so I did and was mad. Some crazy homeless guy that got several “shutup!”s from fellow riders was on the bus all the way to the airport, I had no idea what he was saying but it was hilarious and sad. I also saw some guy peeing in the bushes in the middle of town in front of a busy street business area, the guy behind me saw it too, it was sort of funny. So I am lonely and feel like nothing is going right and I haven’t met too many nice people. I call Canada just to talk to someone who loves me and is nice and cares and isn’t in freaking Honolulu. The guy in front of me, old and condescending, tells me to shutup and be quiet. I was really offended because between that homeless dude yammering and the usual bus drone I really wasn’t being loud at all, so I ended my call and fell even further into tired sadness. I got to the airport and got my boarding pass okay and now I am sitting in front of a huge window finally finding some peace and solitude in this wretched city.