1 Month

Wow its only been a month since i left Hawaii and i can't tell you how it feels like lifetimes! So me and Jeremiah broke up. Until just a few minutes ago i thought i was dying. Couldn't breath, eat, sleep, talk, was obsessed with a reunion, cried any moment i was alone, no matter how brief, bleh bleh the usual mamby pamby break up stuff. But after talking to him about it one last time and getting the most inspiring message ever from Marianna my Hawaii mama i had that amazing epiphany, i broke out of my depressed little rotting apple world and am so happy and excited and relaxed. I had never been plagued by such insane anxiety and stress as i had been in the last few weeks, but i feel things are changing.

Anyway that's not the important thing, i mostly wanted to restart this blog. I would also like to stop and marvel for a moment at fate and coincidence, action and result, the cosmos and divine plan, the karma, the way everything connects and happens for a reason. Like if i hadn't gone to Hawaii we may or may not still be together, but then either way i never would have met this women so far away that said exactly what i needed to hear at that exact moment, it just boggles my mind. I mean there's more to it then that, my mind is reeling right now, but if you told me then what just happened now i would say no way, then maybe i would say, yes way because life is just so crazy like that.

So in the end, thank you Jeremiah for being mean, and Marianna for explaining it all from thousands of miles away, bizarre! But just right.